If I called you and told you how I really feel about you

Yeah me too. Clean slates are best. I am not looking for an affair actually. But the step is so big and the stakes so high so I am not sure I know how to gamble on this one. I am not so strategic a person, I just know the feelings are there and they are not fleeting or superficial. I can?t call him and tell him cause that?s cheating, but I can?t just separate and ruin my family?s life if it?s unrequited. Maybe that makes no sense though.

Nice advice :) did you ever get a second chance and it went the way you wanted it to?

Yeah, I decided to let fate steer this thing. I am trying to like be nice to him and his family and behave like a friend, and like back off a lot on how often we see each other - which is now down to once or twice a week due to children?s activities and stuff. I am at this point very much in the midst of feeling a lot of feelings, so like last time we saw each other the other day ... I smiled and chatted a short while but I just couldn?t look him in the eye and it hurt like hell to back off and I just wanted to like put my hands on his chest and tell him how much I think he is fantastic, gorgeous, fun, intelligent and a beautiful person. Maybe not even say anything just be together and let my feelings exist and possibly have a bit of hot time together. I saw that he was a bit bothered by me taking a step back, he tried to flirt a bit but without the usual response he got a bit sad and kind of ignored me when I left. ah so much svammel. These feelings should disappear on their own soon hopefully, if I keep backing off.